Wednesday, January 30, 2013

A Confession

Happy Wednesday!

I'm not going to lie. I don't even know what day it is anymore because when you are unemployed every day just runs together.

Here's my confession friends: I'm stressed. Big shocker, right?

I'm not here to whine and complain, just vent. It's my blog and my space and hey, girl's gotta let it out! I thought about doing a Wedding Wednesday post but it gave me anxiety reading others' posts, so I opted for this instead.

The past 2 months have been wild. I left my job, moved out of my apartment, secretly moved home, kept the secret that we were moving back to SC for months, and am now wedding planning, living in the gym, and job searching. Oh yeah, and now half of my things are at "our" house in Beaufort and my parents house.

I have a reason to be frazzled right? I don't want this process to consume me. March 23 is coming fast. Like SO fast! Everyone says wedding planning should be fun. Hah. Well, there are some things I have enjoyed but what I am working on now makes me want to pull my hair out and run away: logistics.

I'm ready to be married to Tyler. I'm ready for our life, our home, and getting out of this yucky transition. Yes, not having a job currently has been super nice (except for the fact that I have zero dollars), but I thrive on a schedule!

So in a nutshell: I am trying desperately to keep it together. I'm trying not to have a panic attack (which unfortunately I suffer from) while listening to Trumpet Voluntary. I'm trying to stop eating hamburgers and fries so I don't detest my arms on my wedding day. I'm attempting to make our house feel like a home, all while not living there full-time. I'm job searching in my spare time and trying not to get frustrated because the one lead I had all came crashing down thanks to a crappy personality test. I'm focusing on Jamaica and spending a magical week with my new husband in paradise! 

I'm finished venting so I am going to list the most recent things I've accomplished and not focus on what I NEED to do!

Invitations are addressed
Honeymoon is booked
New minister is booked (the minister at the church resigned last week. joy.)
Music is picked out
Flowers are chosen and are gorgeous (did I mention our florist died in November.. yeah)
Portraits are February 15
Bridesmaids gifts are in production

That's it. Thanks for making it through that if you are still here! I feel better after venting!


PS--- look for my new design and blog name SOON!!!!!!


The Pink Growl said...

You have A LOT going on! Hang in there sister - you will make it through this time just fine, promise! XOXO

Turtles and Pearls said...

Just take a deep breath and know that things will work out in the end!! If you need someone to talk to, I'm always here! xo

Amanda aka Manda said...

I agree with Nikki. It will all work out in the end and knowing you- it will all be beautiful! Just keep focusing on that week with Tyler in paradise!!!

USCEmily said...

It will all be wonderful, I promise! The week of my wedding, Morgan Fanning got mono and she was supposed to sing the Lord's Prayer. The day of, our flower girl REFUSED to wear the slip that I had spent weeks searching for and the wreath hangers would not fit on the thick church doors. Things will go not according to your plan, but I promise, you'll be the only one who knows!

Amy @ A Glimpse of the Gouglers said...

Inhale and exhale. We all need to vent sometimes and girl, you have a reason to need to! IF you can, try to just take it all in. You have so much going on. It'll slowly begin to fall into place. I know it!

Tamara @ Everything Happens said...

I remember that transition very well, and it was just as rough. It is definitely a time of changes, but you'll make it through and it will be so worth it!

Megan said...

Deep breath sweet friend! And you know you can vent to me anytime you need to get things off your chest! So soon you will be settled down and married to Ty and all of this stress will be in the past. :) And you WILL have Mich Obama arms come wedding day!!!!

megan said...

Everything will work itself out! (That's what I keep telling myself anyway) haha :) But for will all calm down soon..

Anna said...

We got married the same weekend as your wedding last year...March 24,2012. I remember having minor freak-out moments in January and February. They were the most stressful wedding planning months for sure. March will be here soon, and it will all be in place. Not to worry.

Redheaded Daybook said...

Don't stress girly! Transitions are great, especially when change is needed. And getting married is a stressful situation but fun too!!! Maybe take a day a week and just relax and not think about anything wedding, job or transition related. Just enjoy yourself and then get back to it the following day. Make a list and stay organized and most of all, stay happy !!!! Congrats on your wedding! I know it will be lovely!

Happy Wednesday!

Redheaded Daybook

Whitney said...

It will all be okay!!! Don't let it stress you out. I know it's easier said than done, but it's not worth stressing out over! Just breathe and text me if you ever start freaking out!

Shannon said...

These pre-wedding jitters are completely normal. As soon as your wedding comes around you'll be ok. This is just a big transitional time so don't worry if you're getting frazzled most of my friends are in the same boat.